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It has been 18 days since we lost Emily Grace, and in last night’s mail was a CD and DVD of pictures that were used during the visitation and funeral. I made copies of the CD and will have a friend make copies of the DVD for distribution in the family. What I can’t believe is how much “life” goes on in spite of the grief and how callous that seems, even to me who has to go on with “life.” Despite the grief, my family needs to eat, bills have to be paid, and Mark must go to work. So I thought this was a good time to remember our niece and post some pictures as a bit of a memorial. I cannot watch the DVD yet–while I could during the funeral, I recognize that the numbness has worn off and it’s simply too painful right now. I also have a special project I’ll work on for Wendy & Brian, but at the moment, even that is too hard for me.

Pictures here range from infancy (with those gigantic eyes and silly smile) to early toddlerhood. She was a carbon copy of her Dada at birth and morphed in to the spitting image of her Mama, especially at the same age. It absolutely stunned me–this child was the exact image of her mother–her mother that I remember from our childhood! Her transformation kept us mesmerized, and she was the most vocal and vibrant of the Gutreuter family.

What a treat she was and how deeply she is missed. It seems as though the fog we are walking through is thick and memories hit us as inopportune times, yet we know how much harder it is for my sister and brother-in-law and their surviving children. Emily Grace (“of the beautiful face,” as my parents always added) will be held in our hearts forever and is missed deeply.

We await our reunion in Heaven, sweet girl. Dance in the arms of Jesus until we arrive!

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  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/12172746 storybookmum

    Sue, she’s absolutely beautiful, and yes, clearly her mother all over again, from that b&w you included. I’m grieved for you, and continue to pray for all of you. God bless you all – I wish you every comfort God can bring you, and His steadfast presence through this terrible time.

    In Christ,

    Kristina, from LCC

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/9305900 WendyG

    Thank you for saying such sweet things about our Precious Baby Girl. She was so beautiful to us when she was here with us, but somehow, everytime I look @ her pictures now, she gets more beautiful.

    We miss her so much. I can’t believe that we’re living this nightmare. She was healthy – healthy kids don’t just die. They don’t. I know I’ve said all of this stuff to you on the phone – sorry.

    I’m reminded, as her death was also a “forced weaning”, as I sit here full of milk and sore boobs, how much this sucks. I *know* in my head that God is good – but oh to feel it in my heart again…one day. That day is not today.

    I love you – thanks for being a listening ear and a soft shoulder…

    xoxo